Unrequited Love

Sometimes, Love will hit you in unexpected ways and believe me it could be kind of wonderful, blissful and so much contentment. but there is always a person who you think won't even hurt you but in the end it's the person who hurt you the most. 

Nothing  is predictable, you can't  predict anyone's intention in your life, you just live through them. Go with the flow, they say. Weeks had past I've been feeling so damn alone, it seems I forget that I'm surrounded by people and all I can do is replay every single words you said to me all over again,I still feel the same when I hear those words, words that haunts me every night.- Unrequited Love.

I used to think that you and me would last for a lifetime but it doesn't make sense anymore, everything I thought that actually made sense literally stopped. The moment you hit me with those words, everything I knew turned into ashes.

We've been through worse and still standing side by side after all and now, feelings fade. the world between you and me just stopped, no words, no emotions, no more i love you's no everything, what the hell just happened? the distance between us can't reach anymore it's too far to catch each others arms. you are so far away and there is no point to run and hug you so tight. We are not the same people we used to be.

Today, the words "I love you" were so raw for me, the truth is, people lie. sometimes I love you is just a lie and sometimes its not. and you even don't know which is real. sometimes someone will love you one day and then they completely ignored you for the next day without further notice. see how Ironic Life is.

I hope one day I'll stop chasing, chasing you in the midst of loving you.

You

Dear Love 💘

I love you. Quite a lot. I think you already know this. You’re amazing, everything about you. 

These are the words that tremble at my fingertips when i type to you. The thoughts that get rejected from the canal they wish to escape. 

Lately, i have been thinking- if you focus on your future, really hard, there is always someone you can picture there. I picture you. I picture us together. 

I picture the days where i wake up, roll over and you- you’re there. Sleeping, oh how you look so handsome sleeping. I will kiss your forehead and go make you breakfast to wake up to. Then as your eating i will talk to you about how you slept. Or the days, we’re both too lazy to get outta bed so we sleep all day and ocassionally wake up to exchange kisses then go back to sleep. To the nights, where you work extremely late, and you come in exhausted wanting to shower and go to bed. 

To the weekends where we go out and i get jealous because you’re way out of my league. All the intimate touches, the exchange of i love you’s. To the arguements and time of despair. Where we will want to beat the shit out of each other and not speak for hours. But- just remember i still love you. 

I can see so far, that when i am ready- i hope i nurture your children. I want them to be a part of me and a part of you. To be whole, a mixture of two souls. Having a family and spending my life with someone like you, i see just that. 

Having you as my hero. Having you as my best friend, my lover, my baby, one day: my husband. You are someone i see in my life. Ever since you appeared in it. 

So to those words that tremple my tongue and finger tips, here they are. Just know, i wish and plan on calling you mine one day. Having you call my mom, your mother in law. I plan on being your Mrs. One day. I love you. 

Sincerly, 
The girl who thinks about you. 💍

Patiently waiting

Last night the rain pours.

But my feelings crash because,

I was in a hurry to see you.

Standing alone in the dark, 

Hopelessly waiting for you. 

Minutes passed by,

the rain still pours heavy

Covering my face with my hands.

thinking if someone would save me,

from the amidst of darkness

I was in a hurdle that night.

Bit uneasy, because someone just grabbed my hand.

wondering why the rain stop from touching my skin.

and yet, here you come.

with an umbrella on your hands.

smiling and saying "i'm here. you are home now".